Getting out...

Of my funk! Undone hair, no make-up and sweats and t- shirts are OK...... every once in a while. I wake up, feed the kids, clean, shower, and play with the kids. I rarely did my make up or my hair :( I was stuck. Stuck in a funk. A frumpy funk. EWWWW! My style has changed SOOO much since becoming a mom. ( don't get me wrong, I enjoy the frumpy days as long as I have more put together days than the frumpy!)  All I own is t-shirts and jeans....Comfy, but not too cute!

SOOOO, I'm getting my self out of this rut I was stuck in. I feel soo much better and more happy when I take the time to get ready or put some thought into an outfit. I am re-vamping my closet with new clothes and putting the time into my hair and makeup. I'm almost 23 and I feel soo much older because I don't put any time into myself! I have anxiety with mild Postpartum Depression.... 

UGHHH just saying that makes me sad!!! I NEVER thought I would ever have this. In fact, I couldn't figure out how people could ever feel "depressed." It just never made sense to me. It's a feeling that just sucks. I'm sooooo thankful for my husband and my mother who have been there for me and encouraged me to go see my doctor. I really feel like a whole new person. A person I haven't felt like in a long time! I think not putting any time into myself was part of my problem. I wasn't happy with the way I looked or felt. I never bought anything for me, just clothes for the kids. It really really feels good to be happy about myself again. it sucks that it took me a while to let anyone know how I was feeling or excepting the fact that something just wasn't right. BUT I'm sooooooo glad I got the help I needed. Everyday is a better day than before. I wake up alive and get to spend one more day with my kids, husband, family and friends! Life really is good. So, here's to a NEW me. A refreshed happier me! :)