Getting out...

Of my funk! Undone hair, no make-up and sweats and t- shirts are OK...... every once in a while. I wake up, feed the kids, clean, shower, and play with the kids. I rarely did my make up or my hair :( I was stuck. Stuck in a funk. A frumpy funk. EWWWW! My style has changed SOOO much since becoming a mom. ( don't get me wrong, I enjoy the frumpy days as long as I have more put together days than the frumpy!)  All I own is t-shirts and jeans....Comfy, but not too cute!

SOOOO, I'm getting my self out of this rut I was stuck in. I feel soo much better and more happy when I take the time to get ready or put some thought into an outfit. I am re-vamping my closet with new clothes and putting the time into my hair and makeup. I'm almost 23 and I feel soo much older because I don't put any time into myself! I have anxiety with mild Postpartum Depression.... 

UGHHH just saying that makes me sad!!! I NEVER thought I would ever have this. In fact, I couldn't figure out how people could ever feel "depressed." It just never made sense to me. It's a feeling that just sucks. I'm sooooo thankful for my husband and my mother who have been there for me and encouraged me to go see my doctor. I really feel like a whole new person. A person I haven't felt like in a long time! I think not putting any time into myself was part of my problem. I wasn't happy with the way I looked or felt. I never bought anything for me, just clothes for the kids. It really really feels good to be happy about myself again. it sucks that it took me a while to let anyone know how I was feeling or excepting the fact that something just wasn't right. BUT I'm sooooooo glad I got the help I needed. Everyday is a better day than before. I wake up alive and get to spend one more day with my kids, husband, family and friends! Life really is good. So, here's to a NEW me. A refreshed happier me! :)

Hold your head up

Take an unplanned trip

Be thankful

Try everything once

Color outside the lines

Fall in love

Embrace change

Trust in yourself

Do what you love

 Dance when everyone is looking

Eat dessert first

be nice to everyone

Play in the rain

break the rules once in a while

Do random acts of kindness

Forgive EVEN when its hard

Make time for family

Don't count the minutes count the laughs

Life is good...

I love laying in bed with my husband and just talking. Talking about our feelings, emotions, thoughts, dreams, goals....everything. Sometimes I think life is hard, than I re-connect with my husband and realize how great life is. I'm so lucky to have a husband how loves me and supports everything I do. I cant say it enough but he really is my rock! Yesterday as I was making lunch for Brandon, I heard two little voices giggling. Madison was supposed to be sleeping in her swing, but instead Brandon was on top of her rocking her and smothering her with kisses. She of course thought this was funny. I couldn't help but get teary eyed standing there watching them. This is EVERYTHING I could have hoped for. My children adore each other. They are best friends. You can see all the love in their eyes that they have for each other. Wherever one goes the other follows. I always thought adding another child to a family would be more of a transition or harder than it has been. Some people look at me like I'm crazy when I say they are only 19 months apart. I sometimes think I'm crazy for having kids 19 months apart, BUT moments like those are EXACTLY why we chose to have them this close.

Today is a new day. Michael is starting a diet today. This means no more baking yummy stuff. I am determined to help my husband. I need to find a happy medium that works in our house. I can NOT diet with him. I'm actually on a different diet to gain weight. Technically I'm really underweight and with breast feeding I just cant and DON"T need to diet. So this will be a challenge to figure out what works for both of us, but I'm sure we will figure it out. If anyone has any links to some good blogs with healthy recipes then send them my way :)

Hospital visit numero tres

Isn't it just when I say Brandon has been staying out of trouble is when something happens... again?!

Ughh this boy!

Well, yesterday Maddie went down for her morning nap so I took Brandon out to Michael's truck with me to make sure Madison's new car seat was installed properly. He was in the front seat playing and "driving," when he turns around with bright orange stuff coming out of his mouth. I asked him what that was and his answer: "Brandon ate that orange thing. It's nasty. I don't like that." Ok kid I see you ate it, BUT WHAT IS IT!???!?! So I'm searching to see what this mysterious nasty orange thing was and I look down the crack between the seat and the center console and find some pieces of a chewed up PILL. Go ahead and guess what color this chewed up pill was. ORANGE@?#!@# AHHHH kid REALLY?!?! The first things that came out of my mouth were "NOOOOOOOO oh my god you don't pills!!!" Poor kid didn't know, and probably thought it was candy. So he looks at me and says, "you don't eat those pills mommy." Even when I'm in a moment of panic he can still make me laugh.

So I wake Maddie up, get them both in the truck and off to the Lodi Memorial Emergency room we go. We get there and I tell them what has happened, so they are admitting him and she asks, " Has he been admitted here before?" before I can answer she chuckles and says, "never mind...he has!" HA! yes, my child is only two and this is his 3rd adventure here! I'm starting to believe he likes this place! I wonder how many times we will sit in an emergency room by the time he's 18? At the rate we're going probably A LOT! They basically just monitored him for a while. Since he was acting like his normal loud self they decided to not draw blood and let me take him home and monitor him. A couple hours in the hospital with just me and both kids was REEEEEAALLLLL fun! Can you read the sarcasm in that?! I'm glad he was ok. That's all that matters :) 

Maddie-bug just cut her 2nd tooth!!!!! She's growing SOOO fast. She is almost 8 months old!!! She holds onto the couch and walks across it! I cant say it enough.... I'M NOT READY FOR HER TO DO THIS! 

Well, that's all the excitement in this house the past couple days!!

flower headband!

Want to learn how to make this flower headband?! Its SUPER easy and really cheap! 

All you need is:

felt 

hot glue gun

scissors 

and a head band

Get any color felt and cut out 5 flower shapes. Mine are probably 2 inches diameter.

 

next fold them in half like so...

 

Then your going to place a folded vertical flower right on top of another folded horizontal flower and put a little dab of glue right in the middle to hold them together.

Do the same with the next two so it looks like this. Its should resemble how you fold a moving box!

Now take your 5th flower and fold in in half, then in half again so it looks like a pizza slice! ( Now my stomach is rumbling and I'm waiting for my PIZZA to deliver!!! :) ) 

put a dab of glue on the point of the folded flower pizza thing and stick it right in the center of the four flowers so its standing up! 

fluff all of your flower petals towards the center one and then you can glue it or sew it onto a headband! they would be really cute on shirt too! :)

anyways here's what a finished flower should look like!

hope its easy to understand! They are REALLY cute and I LOVE making them! 

My little Maddie-bug wearing her hot pink one!

guns,Car seats and piggy paint... What a weekend!

Michael and I had a really awesome time together at the Lodi Grape Festival. It was so much fun spending some time with just him! Plus, Maddie was good for my parents while they watched her. She has stayed with both sets of grandparents now and been fine! She has come a LONG way! 

 on Saturday we went to the gun room in Elk Grove to check out hand guns and to look at hunting shot guns for Michael. That was the VERY FIRST TIME I've EVER held a gun and It made me extremely nervous. :O I got the handbook for the safety test you have to pass to buy one and its basically just common sense. We are going back to rent a couple guns so I can shoot them there and see what one I feel comfortable with :)

Who would have thought I would be willing to go shoot guns?! NOT ME! BUT I spend A LOT of time home alone with my kids, and I need something to protect me and them god forbid anything were to happen. We also looked at the gun safes to keep it in locked and away from the kids. I have NO problem with people owning guns if they properly store them with the safety on and AWAY from a child where they can NOT be accessed. 

We also went to a baby store in Elk grove that carry's a car seat that I wanted for Madison. I was REALLY interested in the Sunshine Radian XTSL. BUT our babies R' Us doesn't carry it in the store and I really wanted to see what I was buying. This car seat is AWESOME. It's very narrow, but its a tank! Its steel re-enforced and extremely safe. Madison can also rear face for much longer. We love this car seat so much we ordered one for Brandon too!

 

I also got Maddie some Piggy Paint finger nail polish!!!!! Its as natural as mud and is non-toxic, odorless and baby friendly! We got "Forever Fancy" and "Girls Rule." I painted her toes when she was sleeping and they look SOOOOOOOOOO cute! I could seriously eat her little toes up!

When she wakes up I'll try and get some pictures of them :)

Friday date night :)

Today has been kinda a BLAHHHH day. It feels like its going by FOREVER and I just cant get motivated to do anything. So instead of cleaning today, we finger painted, rolled around on the floor playing, sang songs and read books. Although I couldn't get motivated to clean, I had fun with my little love bugs! Tonight my wonderful husband is taking me to the Lodi Grape Festival while my parents watch the kids! I love going out with him, It always reminds me how much I love him and spending quality time with just the two of us! I spend 24/7 with both of the kids (which I LOVE) but I'm in much need of a little break for a few hours! :)

50 things....

50 things I want to do before I die.

1. Grow old with my husband

2. Live out in the country in a cute country home with a wrap around porch!

3. Own my own business. I don't know what I want that to be yet, but I just want to start a business!

4. Spend a week in Bora Bora in a little hut on the ocean with Michael.

5. Visit Italy.

6. Buy a boat or maybe some jet skies!

7. Have an amazing relationship with my daughter like I have with my mother!

8. Watch my kids graduate High school.

9. See my babies fall in love and get married.

10. Become a grandmother!

11. Take my kids to Disneyland.

12. Spend a week in Nashville TN.

13. Have a wiener dog! 

14. Have REAL beautiful hardwood floors all through out my home!

15. Take my son to a PBR or a Portagee Bull fight.

16. Go camping somewhere absolutely BEAUTIFUL in the mountains with my family. 

17. Take my mom and Maddie on a vacation. Just the three of us girls! :)

18. own a bunch of truck and trailers and grow Michael's business. 

19. Grow a garden in my backyard.

20. Be a great grandmother

21. Re-new my vows on the beach in front of both of my kids. 

22. Own a REALLY expensive pair of shoes! ;)

23. own a d700

24. Meet Josh Turner!!!! :)

25. Learn how to drive a big truck! Maybe Michael will teach me in his truck!!! hahahaha

26. Surprise my husband with a brand new diesel Chevy or Dodge or a 69 Camaro.

27. Own multiple homes.

28. Learn Yoga!

29. Have a million dollars! Wouldn't that be nice?! :D

30. Sleep on a beach under the stars with Michael. 

31. Get another Tattoo. I keep saying I'm going to be never do!

32. Go on a road trip!

33. Throw an anniversary party for my parents!

34. Ride a Gondola in Venice

35. Become REALLY good at baking. That way my kids always come to visit me when they are older!

36. Have a family picnic out in a beautiful field. 

37. Own an amazing wardrobe in a beautiful closet.

38. Own some cows. I think they are the cutest animals!

39. Have all of my family and husbands family over for a thanksgiving or Christmas dinner!

40. Learn how to ride a motorcycle. I wouldn't ever ride one. i just want to be able to say I know how to!

41. Go to my children's sport practices and games. I cant wait to watch them play or do something!

42. Visit Portugal

43. Spend a weekend in Napa in a cute resort with my husband!

44. Learn how to play an acoustic guitar.

45. Go to a really expensive fancy restaurant where I have to get really dressed up!

46. Get amazing family pictures taken.

47. have a beautiful big kitchen with an island in it!

48. Go prom dress shopping with Maddie. 

49. Watch my kids live a happy life.

50. Love Michael as much as I do now if not more until the day I die. :)

 

Big weight off of my shoulders....

I deleted my Facebook a while ago and it was the best thing I have decided to do in a long time. Facebook was starting to make me depressed and with two (very busy) kids, I honestly don't have time for it and all its drama! I've decided to start blogging way more. I'm trying to have a new outlook on life. I'm done. I'm not taking ANYTHING for granted anymore. Letting go of all grudges and the anger. People spend WAY too much time holding grudges against people, talking about others and its NOT worth it. I don't care about anything in the past anymore, life is too short to be angry. I have too many blessing in my life, my husband, my children and my family. They are my everything, my world....my universe. Its crazy how much life can change in a matter of years. 6 years ago I would have NEVER thought I would be married with 2 kids today. 6 years ago I met Michael, and it seems unreal that its been that long, but at the same time it still feels like yesterday we were riding around in his Tahoe causing trouble! I love that man more today than I ever have. My life is such a blessing, and sometimes you need to sit down and take a little time to remember that. I look into my children's eyes and am reminded how beautiful life truly is. Hug your loved ones a little tighter and kiss them one extra time everyday. Tell them you love them one more time a day. Quit being so angry and enjoy life a little more. :)